If I'm Being Honest

 



If I’m being honest, anxiety knocks on my door everyday

Some days are easy to ignore but other days, I get caught up in its fray

Often times in my mind, excessive worry & feelings of dread have a room to stay

Sometimes I wonder, will I ever cast it away?

 

If I’m being honest, I think I hide my social anxiety pretty well

But when I open up my mouth, the fear tells me it’s not well

Self-consciousness & embarrassment take the driver’s seat

All I fear is humiliation and signs of defeat

But everyday I pray for God to move with great feats

 

If I’m being honest, depression knocked on my door last year

Oh gosh, why did I feel like hope was not near?

Will I ever be able to count my tears?

Gym-no, work-I have to/dragging, eat-emotionally, socialize-I guess so, but the struggle was real

Oh try to dwell on positive things they say but I say it’s time to get real


If I’m being honest, I had to search for something bigger than myself

They say “faith over fear” but the Bible stayed on the shelf

I questioned God but I also asked Him to save me from my self

Then He asked me, “My daughter do you trust me?”

God I trust that You’re in control but why I do feel like everything’s falling apart?


Then God answered me and said:

My daughter, the anxiety that you carry is meant to be cast on me

The depression thrown to the depths of the sea

Don’t you know that “my grace is sufficient for thee?”

I will give you My power and strength when you feel weak

Don’t you know that My Son took your burdens and set you free?

If My Son has set you free, then you are free indeed!

 

If I’m being honest……mental health is no respecter of persons …..


Warm Wishes, 

Carline

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